I didn't realise - but I am turning 23 yrs old on my birthdate, 23rd.
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mama papa please help me buy 4D. Sat and Sunday ( i missed wednesday), 1 big, 1 small.thank you
blog again laters =)
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Monday, August 20, 2007
10 days and counting..
Today marks my last 10 days in Grand Canyon. Come 12am, it will spiral into a single digit (9days left)
As the time for me to leave here draws nearer, I am having pangs of she-bu-de-ness, ie, can't bear to leave the place.
My past 3 months here, I have grown attached to this foreign environment, with new friends, new living space, new life, etc. More importantly, I have grown emotionally attached to some of the friends I made here, like my boss, Amy, post-lady, Judy, my working crew @ Deli - Marek, Diego, Micheala, Zuzana (who sometimes drives me crazy).
If I thought it was sad to see my SG friends off when they had go back to school in Singapore, I really can't imagine the day when I leave here. Even when I think about it now, I can't help feeling...down. I have almost thoroughly(well, 80% of the time, I guess, amidst some racism, exploitation, overworkingness, bla bla..) enjoyed my stay here, so much so I don't even miss Singapore abit. Only my family, friends and food. Other things about Singapore, I really don't give a flying f*. I would gladly get away from Singapore. Everything is about efficiency - so much so there is no life. I am purely staying alive, I am not living my life at all! Just counting the days till the day I step into my coffin. Life didn't make any sense to me. I am always wondering why life is so oppressing in Singapore. I had to study stuffs that isn't really useful, do stupid FYP that didn't benefit me much but allow my Prof. to exploit my time spent on the project. Pure Crap. I like it so much here that I don't wanna leave. But as the saying goes, all good things come to an end, perhaps it is better to end on a high note, and not let it dawdle to something..... yeah, leave it while its good - so that only good memories will dwell in the heart forever.
As the time for me to leave here draws nearer, I am having pangs of she-bu-de-ness, ie, can't bear to leave the place.
My past 3 months here, I have grown attached to this foreign environment, with new friends, new living space, new life, etc. More importantly, I have grown emotionally attached to some of the friends I made here, like my boss, Amy, post-lady, Judy, my working crew @ Deli - Marek, Diego, Micheala, Zuzana (who sometimes drives me crazy).
If I thought it was sad to see my SG friends off when they had go back to school in Singapore, I really can't imagine the day when I leave here. Even when I think about it now, I can't help feeling...down. I have almost thoroughly(well, 80% of the time, I guess, amidst some racism, exploitation, overworkingness, bla bla..) enjoyed my stay here, so much so I don't even miss Singapore abit. Only my family, friends and food. Other things about Singapore, I really don't give a flying f*. I would gladly get away from Singapore. Everything is about efficiency - so much so there is no life. I am purely staying alive, I am not living my life at all! Just counting the days till the day I step into my coffin. Life didn't make any sense to me. I am always wondering why life is so oppressing in Singapore. I had to study stuffs that isn't really useful, do stupid FYP that didn't benefit me much but allow my Prof. to exploit my time spent on the project. Pure Crap. I like it so much here that I don't wanna leave. But as the saying goes, all good things come to an end, perhaps it is better to end on a high note, and not let it dawdle to something..... yeah, leave it while its good - so that only good memories will dwell in the heart forever.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
a turn in events
A turn in events.
(yesterday) I am promoted to 'Acting Lead', and Andrew to 'Acting Supervisor'. I wasn't elated happy.. 'Cos... it seems morbid to me. And... It doesn't mean anything to me now. 75cents increment per hour... doesn't appeal to me much... 'cos the responsibilities that hold.. may tip the scales of the 75cents per hour.
(today) The new F and B Manager forced me to do something against my wishes. There's this pair of girls in Deli, that when they work together, they just sit and talk and do minimal work. I just leave them be, 'cos I do not like bossing people around. People who knows me should know that I rather do the work myself than boss people to do it.
So this FnB manager asked me to, "Now that you are acting lead, I want you to go tell the girls that whenever there is free time, they have to scrub the walls.... I want to see you do that..."
Nahbei. How can I don't do it?! Obviously... now I know what "acting lead" means. It means that if I fail his test, I get demoted la. (in my opinion)
Well, I did go forward to tell them... under his watchful eyes.. But SOMEHOW he missed the action cos he was talking to someone else, and I think I didn't convey the message well to them(the girls) la.. what the heck?
At that point in time, a battled and weary me was just thinking to ask them to denounce this 'acting lead' shit thing. You think I covet after your 75 cents per hour meh?老娘没钱啊？！
I just hate to be forced to do things i hate.
And seriously speaking, I think I have failed the first "assessment". But heck it la..
But after serious thought, the rebel in me... just wanna fight it out with them. The more they want to demote me, the more I want to get promoted. 'Cos I know, the reason I got promoted was not thru' their recommendations, but through my direct boss. So, I think this FnB manager + "Shit-La" somehow disapprove of my Manager's decision...and perhaps they just wanna see me fall from grace.
**so touched that my manager....sees my hardwork..
(and I seriously think there's this race discrimination thingie.. a hunch thats not proven lah. So if thats the case, for my manager to put me up there.... i can only imagine the resistance she faced)
I gave some introspection into what happened, this "you go order other people to show your leadership" thing...
1. Leadership is not ordering people around. If you think leadership is that. you are very skewed. My style is a "servant leader and to lead by example". If I can't do it as a leader, there is no way I should demand that of the workers.
2. A hardworking person may not be a good leader. I was thinking... I felt oppressed when forced to order people around. All along, I thought I was capable, a good worker, no questions/doubts about it. Perhaps I was wrong about the capable part?
The first half of my life, I was a leader. Girls' Brigade Company Leader, Student Council's head, Wushu Ex-co....
But when I enter University, I decided I needed a break. Enough of the shouldered responsibilities. I just want to have a carefree and slack time. Perhaps this absence of leadership for these 5 yrs, I kindda lost it? Perhaps its just sleeping in me. I don't know..
3. 罢着 茅坑不拉屎。 Literally,"occupying the toilet bowl when you don't shit." I realise, americans, whether they have the caliber or not, when they are promoted, they are just content to stay at that position. Whether they deliver... is not important to them... Maybe I'm wrong, but thats what I think.. For me, its tantamount for me to deliver what's expected of me. That's the basis. Ar bo you promote me for what?? So I was thinking, if I ain't got it, when should I be a stumbling block? Perhaps I should learn from the Americans - no need to so responsible one la. Got pay rise can liao.
4. Haha, but does size matters in leadership? That Andrew is huge. But Deng Xiaoping was a midget. Heh heh.
Who knows what will happen tmr? Maybe I go in to work, bad news will greet me. "Sorry but we think you are not suitable to be lead." Like that is very xia suay one.. I rather "commit suicide than be slaughtered - but not without putting up a gallant fight" =) [literal meaning la] won't die one la. Anything happens I can just pack and leave here. No biggies.
Strange. I come here to live life as a vagrant, why become like tt?!?!?!
I must rest well and prepare to battle tmr. You want me to order people around, sure, no prob.
You better be fair in your judgement. I kena tested, the other one better be. Although he should have no problem... cos he is fond of bossing people and then shake leg himself. Bah! m|n you should know hor. Mahahaha
(yesterday) I am promoted to 'Acting Lead', and Andrew to 'Acting Supervisor'. I wasn't elated happy.. 'Cos... it seems morbid to me. And... It doesn't mean anything to me now. 75cents increment per hour... doesn't appeal to me much... 'cos the responsibilities that hold.. may tip the scales of the 75cents per hour.
(today) The new F and B Manager forced me to do something against my wishes. There's this pair of girls in Deli, that when they work together, they just sit and talk and do minimal work. I just leave them be, 'cos I do not like bossing people around. People who knows me should know that I rather do the work myself than boss people to do it.
So this FnB manager asked me to, "Now that you are acting lead, I want you to go tell the girls that whenever there is free time, they have to scrub the walls.... I want to see you do that..."
Nahbei. How can I don't do it?! Obviously... now I know what "acting lead" means. It means that if I fail his test, I get demoted la. (in my opinion)
Well, I did go forward to tell them... under his watchful eyes.. But SOMEHOW he missed the action cos he was talking to someone else, and I think I didn't convey the message well to them(the girls) la.. what the heck?
At that point in time, a battled and weary me was just thinking to ask them to denounce this 'acting lead' shit thing. You think I covet after your 75 cents per hour meh?老娘没钱啊？！
I just hate to be forced to do things i hate.
And seriously speaking, I think I have failed the first "assessment". But heck it la..
But after serious thought, the rebel in me... just wanna fight it out with them. The more they want to demote me, the more I want to get promoted. 'Cos I know, the reason I got promoted was not thru' their recommendations, but through my direct boss. So, I think this FnB manager + "Shit-La" somehow disapprove of my Manager's decision...and perhaps they just wanna see me fall from grace.
**so touched that my manager....sees my hardwork..
(and I seriously think there's this race discrimination thingie.. a hunch thats not proven lah. So if thats the case, for my manager to put me up there.... i can only imagine the resistance she faced)
I gave some introspection into what happened, this "you go order other people to show your leadership" thing...
1. Leadership is not ordering people around. If you think leadership is that. you are very skewed. My style is a "servant leader and to lead by example". If I can't do it as a leader, there is no way I should demand that of the workers.
2. A hardworking person may not be a good leader. I was thinking... I felt oppressed when forced to order people around. All along, I thought I was capable, a good worker, no questions/doubts about it. Perhaps I was wrong about the capable part?
The first half of my life, I was a leader. Girls' Brigade Company Leader, Student Council's head, Wushu Ex-co....
But when I enter University, I decided I needed a break. Enough of the shouldered responsibilities. I just want to have a carefree and slack time. Perhaps this absence of leadership for these 5 yrs, I kindda lost it? Perhaps its just sleeping in me. I don't know..
3. 罢着 茅坑不拉屎。 Literally,"occupying the toilet bowl when you don't shit." I realise, americans, whether they have the caliber or not, when they are promoted, they are just content to stay at that position. Whether they deliver... is not important to them... Maybe I'm wrong, but thats what I think.. For me, its tantamount for me to deliver what's expected of me. That's the basis. Ar bo you promote me for what?? So I was thinking, if I ain't got it, when should I be a stumbling block? Perhaps I should learn from the Americans - no need to so responsible one la. Got pay rise can liao.
4. Haha, but does size matters in leadership? That Andrew is huge. But Deng Xiaoping was a midget. Heh heh.
Who knows what will happen tmr? Maybe I go in to work, bad news will greet me. "Sorry but we think you are not suitable to be lead." Like that is very xia suay one.. I rather "commit suicide than be slaughtered - but not without putting up a gallant fight" =) [literal meaning la] won't die one la. Anything happens I can just pack and leave here. No biggies.
Strange. I come here to live life as a vagrant, why become like tt?!?!?!
I must rest well and prepare to battle tmr. You want me to order people around, sure, no prob.
You better be fair in your judgement. I kena tested, the other one better be. Although he should have no problem... cos he is fond of bossing people and then shake leg himself. Bah! m|n you should know hor. Mahahaha
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
just wanna go home..
Pictures blog will be adjourned till further notice. However, there will still be word blogs.. Heh heh, without pictures, I can't skive and write less.
Well, my laptop decided to kena virus, and my picture folder "Grand Canyon" decided to be corrupted, I can't open the folder, and thus, can't do any photo blog (Zion trip). I will see what I can do... Hopefully I can recover my pictures... otherwise I will surely :'(
Work is not terrific here. In fact, it sucks BIG TIME. In fact, it has been almost my worst job experience so far. Seriously under-staffed, I am seriously over-worked (although I work 8.5 hours, but the amount of work put in is seriously. OMG) I am pretty much like "looking after my workplace, but I am paid menially. So... I am exploited. Seriously exploited. I'm counting down to the days I can leave. About 20 more days. I will hang in there, don't worry folks. 吃的苦中苦，方为人上人。 我吃的起苦。因为苦，所知乐。每一个经历都有学习的过程。I have learned that knowledge is power. Therefore, those people who kicked my ass here... Better don't cross paths with me in future. I make sure I kick your ass back ten times (well, actually only one bitch here that sucks. She better not come to my home country.) And bull shitting is the way to go in US.
The management here sucks. They only promote their own people. Even though you are capable (like me), you will still be stuck down there........
Many times I regret my decision in staying longer, and not leaving with Cheemin and co. But if I didn't stay, I wouldn't have been more independent, to take the stress of work, to handle my work without much supervisory. (sounds a 'lil cocky here, but...yeah)
Let's hope tomorrow will be better. 12am already!!! 19 more days to go!!!! Whheeeee
Well, my laptop decided to kena virus, and my picture folder "Grand Canyon" decided to be corrupted, I can't open the folder, and thus, can't do any photo blog (Zion trip). I will see what I can do... Hopefully I can recover my pictures... otherwise I will surely :'(
Work is not terrific here. In fact, it sucks BIG TIME. In fact, it has been almost my worst job experience so far. Seriously under-staffed, I am seriously over-worked (although I work 8.5 hours, but the amount of work put in is seriously. OMG) I am pretty much like "looking after my workplace, but I am paid menially. So... I am exploited. Seriously exploited. I'm counting down to the days I can leave. About 20 more days. I will hang in there, don't worry folks. 吃的苦中苦，方为人上人。 我吃的起苦。因为苦，所知乐。每一个经历都有学习的过程。I have learned that knowledge is power. Therefore, those people who kicked my ass here... Better don't cross paths with me in future. I make sure I kick your ass back ten times (well, actually only one bitch here that sucks. She better not come to my home country.) And bull shitting is the way to go in US.
The management here sucks. They only promote their own people. Even though you are capable (like me), you will still be stuck down there........
Many times I regret my decision in staying longer, and not leaving with Cheemin and co. But if I didn't stay, I wouldn't have been more independent, to take the stress of work, to handle my work without much supervisory. (sounds a 'lil cocky here, but...yeah)
Let's hope tomorrow will be better. 12am already!!! 19 more days to go!!!! Whheeeee
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
tip me, tip ME!
WARNING: explicits abundent. Proceed with care, and..PG16
For people who dunno,
I have been "internally promoted" to Cashier of the Deli. Pay is still the same, but more seng1 lang1 la..
There are another 2 cashiers, "A" and "M".
Well, as cashiers, they get tips.. LOTSA LOTSA.( Av.2 and Av. 16 respectively.)
Lim pei's tips may range from 0USD to maybe 1.25USD (the max I got in one day).
I was thinking, why am I so pathetically tipped? Do customers tip according to looks, or skin color? If so, I must really be not very pretty...
SIGH!!!
TIP ME LEH.
tip me to BOOST my alter-ego.
I dun get it. I provide good service ok?( Or so i think)
I reduce the waiting time to make payments.( I am rather efficient)
Why like that unfair one?!
People can sweet talk, glib talker...
maybe i should start totalk crap sweet talk people.
MAYBE i should start wearing makeup!
Life is such unfair. I work so hard, but still my pay is MEASLY.
to hell with life! Maybe I should start changing my name to a more 吉祥 one. Why work so hard and earn measly when you can work minimally and EARN MORE?!
KNN. I hate life. ANYWHERE, not only here, but in SG as well.
Life is such unfair. KNN! KNN! KNN!
*PHEW. PEACE OUT.
Life is unfair to begin with. Where and when will it be fair? The truth to be told, never
Why are kids born with AIDS? Why some have a silver spoon in their mouths? Life was never fair to begin with. So F* life. Just live it and finish it. Thats the best that can be done
For people who dunno,
I have been "internally promoted" to Cashier of the Deli. Pay is still the same, but more seng1 lang1 la..
There are another 2 cashiers, "A" and "M".
Well, as cashiers, they get tips.. LOTSA LOTSA.( Av.2 and Av. 16 respectively.)
Lim pei's tips may range from 0USD to maybe 1.25USD (the max I got in one day).
I was thinking, why am I so pathetically tipped? Do customers tip according to looks, or skin color? If so, I must really be not very pretty...
SIGH!!!
TIP ME LEH.
tip me to BOOST my alter-ego.
I dun get it. I provide good service ok?( Or so i think)
I reduce the waiting time to make payments.( I am rather efficient)
Why like that unfair one?!
People can sweet talk, glib talker...
maybe i should start to
MAYBE i should start wearing makeup!
Life is such unfair. I work so hard, but still my pay is MEASLY.
to hell with life! Maybe I should start changing my name to a more 吉祥 one. Why work so hard and earn measly when you can work minimally and EARN MORE?!
KNN. I hate life. ANYWHERE, not only here, but in SG as well.
Life is such unfair. KNN! KNN! KNN!
*PHEW. PEACE OUT.
Life is unfair to begin with. Where and when will it be fair? The truth to be told, never
Why are kids born with AIDS? Why some have a silver spoon in their mouths? Life was never fair to begin with. So F* life. Just live it and finish it. Thats the best that can be done
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